i went through a tough time during the time i was gone. i fell in love. not with a boy either. yea. a girl. female. my kind. sheila. blah blah fucking blah. she loved me too. she drove me insane and i was blinded by love. i didnt want to do anything but be with her. she was my world. she still is. but she broke my heart. she broke up with me. but i picked the pieces of my broken heart up, only to give them to her. again. the first time i gave her my heart she didnt protect it. i was willing to give her another chance tho. now she protects the small shattered thing called my heart. she protects each and every piece. she loves me for me. i wasnt me first. a wanted to be her ex girlfriend because she use tobe in love with her. but i didnt realize she no longer wanted that anymore and she wanted her baby. she wanted me. well she has me, but we arent together. my mom found out. she hated me first. she accepts it partially now, but she still cant look into my eyes. she says she lovees me, i believe her, but there is something else there. but i cant give up love because mo mother doesnt approve. she would never tell me who to date or who not to. but i trust the only girl i have ever loved. she tells me i shouldnt risk her again, she is a mess up in her eyes. but in mine, she is everything. she knows she is. she says shes proud of it too. i hope she isnt lying, i dont think the pieces of my heart can break down anymore.